This year has been extremely busy—and it hasn’t been without its challenges and it's losses.
There were moments I prayed for certain obstacles to be removed. I asked God to take away the grief, the hurt, to make things easier, or to change the situation. And while He didn’t take those things away, He did something far deeper.
He worked on me.
Looking back, I can see how God used every hard moment to reveal things in my own heart—things I didn’t even realize were there. He showed me where I needed healing, where I needed growth, and where I needed to let go of control. He gave me strength that didn’t come from my own ability to push through, but strength that could only come from Him.
“My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”
— 2 Corinthians 12:9
Charles Spurgeon said, “Oh, there must be the weakness of man, felt, recognized, and mourned over, or else the strength of the Son of God will never be perfected in us.”
I’ve been reminded that sometimes God doesn’t calm the storm because He’s more focused on revealing Himself to us and through us.
There were days I felt grieved, exhausted, stretched thin, and unsure of what the next step should be. Yet somehow, I kept moving forward. That wasn’t because I had it all together—it was because God was holding me together. He was quietly shaping me, softening me, and reminding me that I was never walking alone.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
— Psalm 34:18
More than anything, I am overwhelmed with gratitude for a God who loves me enough to meet me exactly where I am. A God who loved me so much that He sent His Son to save me. A God who continues to love me—not because I’m perfect, but in spite of who I am and how stubborn I can be at times.
“But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
— Romans 5:8
That kind of love changes everything.
Like this year, I know that the coming year will not be without its challenges as well, but as I move forward, my prayer isn’t for an easier road—its for a deeper faith. I want to continue seeking Him daily, trusting that He is with me even when I feel unsure. I want to be sensitive to His voice and bold enough to answer the call to serve Him, wherever He leads.
“You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart.”
— Jeremiah 29:13
This season has taught me that growth often comes through discomfort, and obedience sometimes requires faith before understanding. But I know this: God is faithful. He is patient. And He is not finished with me.
And for that, I am deeply grateful.